Cookie Cawthon’s Day Off

I’m doing a bit of remote blogging today. I am seven hours away from home – in the mountains of Virginia. The fall foliage is stunning, as you might expect. Hopefully I’ll have some great pics to post next week (only have the camera on my phone and no cable for uploading – bummer!). Chris is working, and I am quiet. I have been alone all day today, and I love it. I am one who desperately needs regular doses of solitude and silence to soften and unzip; the only problem is that it doesn’t happen regularly (my own fault for grossly overscheduling my life).

Today is one of those days where I just want to store up rest and patience and gentleness for weeks to come. Like I would love to sleep as much as possible here and have that translate into two weeks of feeling well-rested. Unfortunately, that’s not the deal. In fact, what usually happens is that I return less patient than when I left because I’ve supped on a couple of days of selfishness and it’s quite difficult to immediately jump back into mommy-mode. There’s just no time of transition; someone needs milk, another needs to potty, this one wants to go to the store to buy something she has seen on TV, and that one wants you to color and read a book NOW, etc… Can anybody else identify? So thankful for my sweetheart girls (I swallowed my heart this morning when I walked in the market and saw a pack of crayons – a momma’s ache, wanting to be physically near my little ones but understanding the value of some time away) and so thankful for this neat little trip, but a little bummed that I can’t capture the fragrance of tranquility and release it from its dainty bottle on a day of chaos in my future.

So this place we’re staying is interesting. It was built in 1766, so – you know – it’s old. I love historic, so that’s cool – but you’re not suppose to wear jeans in the Great Hall (lobby – in case you were wondering). Chris and I arrived in the Great Hall last night at 11:00 pm both in jeans. And guess what the staple of my wardrobe for our stay is – uh, huh – jeans. Chris was like, “People, welcome to the twenty-first century; everybody wears jeans everywhere.” So we’re wearing our jeans, and honestly so is everyone else and shorts. No one’s respecting the Great Hall; people show no decorum these days. Sigh.

And there’s like 30 ladybugs that live in our room. Most of the time on the ceiling. Although one just joined me on the laptop not too long ago. Thankfully they have good manners. And they’re lady-like, not creepy bugs. They call that charm. I guess…

AND – NO VENDING MACHINES! I can pay $3.50 for a Diet Pepsi in a can in our room. Whoa! I like nice and all, but it ain’t nice (and neither am I) when I can’t get a drink. It is not cool to mess with me like that.

We played paintball this afternoon with Chris’ colleagues, and it was so fun. I was awful at it; I did not hit one person in four games. So fun though. Got a great picture of me with a pink paint ball splattered in the front of my hair. Also collected a nick on a knuckle and a hematoma on my elbow. So fun though…

And we rounded out the evening with three games of bowling and room service at the bowling alley. The first game, I had the worst score of the whole group of us, but I got my groove on after that. Shout out to lil’ ole me for breaking 100 on the second game (I scored a humbling 39 the first round), and I definitely garnered the Most Improved Award.

An amusing 24 hours, to say the least…

Smilin’ Your Way…

I am way excited. Stoked even. Pumped. Amped. Exhilarated. You know that feeling of having waited for something for so long that you are actually excited to numbness. Disbelief. In my mind’s ear I can already hear the guitar chords summoning my heartbeat. My face is brushed by the almost imperceptible chill in the mid-morning October breeze. My smile won’t quit. There is life like I haven’t felt in a long time. I will laugh. And cry. And sing with eyes closed and body swayin’. My breath catches as I fight feeling overwhelmed – overwelmed by sheer delight.

Here I am to worship.

At my church.

NewSpring Florence debuts this Sunday (October 19) at 10:30 at the McNair Science Bldg Auditorium on the campus of FMU. Uh-huh!

Will you be my guest?

I’ll be at the door – grinning like a crazy person – looking for you.

Stoked for sure. I plan to leave that place empty and full all at once…

Been waitin’ a loooooooong time.

Our Not So Favorite Things…

Me

  1. snakes
  2. chewing gum
  3. lotion (i really do hate it! there are some that aren’t super greasy, but i can’t stand to feel lubed up.)
  4. when i really, really, really am excited to eat at a particular restaurant and it is closed; after that kind of disappointment I don’t want to eat at all – and that’s serious
  5. tomatoes
  6. scary movies
  7. picking vegetables from the garden (i know that sounds so lazy and ungrateful but for years i was an indentured servant to my family’s mammoth garden – it was planted in the middle of three intersecting tobacco fields – large! i resolved that i would not marry a man whose family grew a garden and i was dead serious about it)
  8. having a body chemistry that attracts nations of bugs to feast on my flesh (others around me aren’t nearly as tasty – don’t understand it)
  9. flying (the whole gravity-defying deal just freaks me out)
  10. flat shoes (they’re fine on other people, but i am too short and curvy to be that low to the ground)
  11. trash in my trash cans (someone shared this eccentricity at a Beth Moore conference and i felt so validated)
  12. reruns
  13. homework (this is surely recompense for my die-hard belief that students should have homework every night – yes, i know she’s only in the first grade but it’s awful!)
  14. fat-free salad dressing
  15. things that don’t end at a good stopping place (like i had to add this one because i couldn’t bear for my list to stop at 14.)

I also interviewed my cute lil’ fam, and this is what they had to say…

Chris

  1. Georgia Bulldawg red
  2. playing Baby Jaguar (which is this game he made up with the girls, but they went all nelly-nutcase on him and wanted him to play it every single day as soon as he walked in the door – with absolutely no variation from the script day after day after day after day. a dad can only take so much…)
  3. CBS news
  4. crabgrass
  5. scary movies
  6. litter (he seriously wants to be a litter patrol officer when he retires – i kid you not!)
  7. credit cards
  8. restaurants that serve only instant or flavored tea – we only like it brewed, straight, on the rocks with a healthy dose 0′ sweet n’ low (no aspartame warnings allowed – it’s a vitamin in my book!)

Carson

  1. collards
  2. cooked carrots
  3. washing and combing her hair
  4. scary movies
  5. arising at 6:38 each weekday morning
  6. anything that requires a wait

Campbell

  1. anytime momma leaves 🙁
  2. anytime her sister locks her door
  3. anytime the spotlight hones in on her (see picture post; she doesn’t even like for the three of us to sing Happy Birthday to her on her big day)
  4. scary movies
  5. standing in the corner
  6. replacement blankies (please don’t ever make the mistake of trying to convince her to use another blankie while her 2 real ones are being washed; she will flail about madly – like only a three year-old can – even if she has an accident during the night she prefers to go without cover than to allow a sub)

Hope you noticed my capitalization and punctuation had the night off – quite liberating for the psycho English teacher in me…

Runnin’ on Sunshine

I lay in bed this morning having my a.m. cup of inner conflict. Run or not? Most of me was screaming, “Not!” But somehow the best choice won this round (a phenomenon that hasn’t been happening all that often lately). So I headed out on the Rail Trail this radiant fall morning; it was stunning and still and fresh.


It could not have been better. And then I ran by this bench – which seemed so out of place. It was like someone sounding an airhorn in the midst of a wedding.

Oh, that I never get so lost in my own sunshine that I forget that people around me are hurting.

And then there was this wild petunia. Of the two-mile stretch I ran to and fro, there was brown and green a plenty – and some gold. And then there was this wild petunia – this moment of color. Isn’t that so like Him?

Sweet Child of Mine

Campbell’s teacher sent a note home today. I was not surprised. It was her most dreaded day of the school year – picture day! She thinks photogs are creepy, the whole thing is forced, and she is not participating in some concocted charade of gaiety just so I can lamely whip out pictures of my two girls with acquaintances and friends from long ago. She’s not having it! At three years-old, she is not verbal enough to articulate all of that sass, but I know her well enough to know that is exactly what she would say if she could. So, let me introduce you to my Campbell…

and here she is again…

and again…

She’s a bit like Wilson, the partially-revealed neighbor on Home Improvement.

Her PaPa had a great idea. I think I’m going to start a photo album for her school pictures. In place of the picture I will slide in the note from her teacher each year. This is Campbell in 3K; this is Campbell in 4K, etc… Because believe you me (Chris hates when I bust out ole’ timey verbage), the day will come when she reams me for the insufficient photographic documentation of her childhood. I’m preparing myself…

Just consider this post Exhibit 45 to be used in my defense…